Work and the nature of employment
I wrote this in April of 2019. Just happened onto it today and hit publish. I lost my job this week. It was a long time coming, I have to acknowledge, but it was still a shock. I didn't get fired, though. My position was terminated. I suppose that should make me feel better, but it really doesn't. During the termination meeting, the shock of it altered me to such a degree that my hand shook as I signed and dated their lay-off form. That was surprising to me, as well as aggravating. I never want other people to see the effect they have on me. But I suppose some things are simply out of our control. A parade of different worries and emotions took up temporary residence before my eyes, as the next couple of days went by. My first concern should be easily imagined: what will I do for money. Not in the long run, necessarily, but in the immediate future. I spent over three years with this company, but, as the employee handbook clearly stated, any unused vacation or sick days ar